Will I be a cat!! ?
The day was scar-full, damn and nervous for me. I did not expect that I will be startled about my future. For the first time I thought I made a wrong step and I am gone be a slave. Things made me totally confused and my eyes started looking forward. I couldn’t able to feel the surroundings. Did I really made a wrong choice?.
I went a tour with my family and some of my family friends. I was just not interested to go for it. I had a lot of work on my project, so I refused to my parents that I will not be with them. But they forced me, so I went. After a long period I woke up @ 4 AM and we started @ 5 AM. I felt very great myself, because I touched my bed @12.30 PM of that night and I woke up so early. That will remain as a record for me. Thing is that I have activated my MSG offer in my mobile, So little relief that I can do MSG chat with some special ones. We started from home on Safari, totally 9 members. I sat in back side of safari with my brother and my family friend, who is a software professional. I said a simple “Hi” to him and he greeted me with the same word. I sent a few msgs to my pals. In 1Hr we crossed our border of the state and my mobile gone in roaming. I felt very disgraceful, I couldn’t able send the msgs. I asked to my dad “when we will be in our state”. He said just 5hrs. I thought “OMG WTF I do such time”. There are no options for me, so I tried to pass the time by a talk with my family friend.
He is just a fresher for the software job. I asked him where he is working, how’s his life there, expenses, salary. He shared with me everything. He is working in an UK consultancy core banking projects. He does task management and consultancy work for his clients. The company is at Chennai. He is getting salary of 5 digits. Expenses are in control and he able to save half of his salary. He is working since two years. He got three times promotions. Everything looks great and fine. But he is just making his voice dull at the last word of his sentence. Like He says “Everything is cool and Fiiiiiiiiiiii………ne”. I did not got this well. I just looked him keeping my face in an ignorant mood. Then he asked about me. I said “Nothing special, Just in 7th semester and one to go……Got selected in MindTree Software and Consultancy”. Meanwhile my brother interrupted and said “My brother does engineering in correspondence and pays money to the university to get grades and also to MindTree. ”(He used to tease me like )
I said “Just sit ” to my bro. We was just laughing at that instant. Then the person asked me “Is it a software company”
I said “Yes, Its 5th graded MNC Software Company”
He said “Why you choose it?”
He doesn’t know about my college, He thought I have lot of options. I said
“MindTree was the first company and may be last, offered placement in my college, I went for it and got selected”
He said “You made a wrong choice; instead you should have tried for a core company”
I know software jobs little insecure for fresher’s but I had a strong mind that I can handle it. You know hearing like those statements made me little tense.
He said he has everything from his company but work will be like a slave. Just need to sit before dumb PCs, working on it like a machine. Torcher from team leaders will be the big burden. Employs will not able get a free time. Pressures from higher rankers are soo common. Morning 9 to night 9 is the time. Half of the life needs to be dedicated. The work satisfaction will not be there, because the assigned projects keeps on shifting from team to team, so the completion of work will not be by a single team and the fame goes to the team leader not to the back bone employs. Recognition of work is a huge task. Even the employ is high efficient he will be masked and dump persons take that name. The raise of voice is a really a mid-day dream. Even getting dreams is tough. You can’t get a time think about yourself. Any distraction in SENSX, NIFTY- Company may kick you off without a reason. Employs are scared about the rescission in market. No guaranty for existence. People need to transform themselves; individual personality will be totally masked.
He was just keeps saying it. I totally shunted down. He said “Nothing to worry but It depends on your …………behavior and technical ability”.
I said ”Hmmm….”……I took out my ear phones and moved to songs. I do hear songs when I think harder. The words are just keep on ringing in me. Even my favorite singer AKON couldn’t able to divert me.
I remembered the day before Mind-Tree selection date. I went to training- placement(T&P) program in my college with my friends. One of my English lecturers was explaining about the software company’s environment and rules of behavior, work hierarchy ……etc. At the end of she said a sentence
“Dress up and act for what you want to be
Not for what you are …………………….”
At that time me and my dearest friend (Siting beside) felt the selfishness in the sentence. It’s not the sentence only from her, every software company says it. Persons have to be change, their traits. They have to change…….their freedom, passion, likes, opinions, Individuality and personality will be masked up with new senses. I doesn’t able to digest it at that moment. That sentence was just striking my mind again and again.
Once I saw a review in Facebook, How the software companies transforms the Tigers to Cats(Employs). That was a awesome update I ever seen. At that time I had no idea on that. Now the person’s words, mam’s sentence and the Facebook review made me little disbarred from a good mood. I felt I am gone be a slave and I will be a cat for that company. Again after 5mins I thought I can handle everything and I am gonna have a bright future in my company. These two thoughts are just cycling……..I couldn’t grasp a point.
The time passes away and our vehicle reached RAYAGADA city. I was just not in mood and looking out from the backside of vehicle to the roads. We just passed away the college RAYAGADA INSTITUTE OF TECHNOLOGY & MANAGEMENT. I don’t know why always a strange thing happens to me. A group of girls walking aside the road. I guess they belong to that college. Driver made the vehicle little slower…..I looked the girls just with a seconds of look….Strangely One of the girl showed her middle finger to me, like expressing “F*** Off”. I just scrambled in the seat, because I said nothing to them nor I stared at them. My brother seen it and asked me ” what she is saying”……….Ohhhh, I just slunk by a simple lie “she is not saying that to me”……….. You know I am good in situation handling, I managed there.
Its true
”Roses comes with spines,
Girls come with risk”
That’s a crap thing in that day and my scared feel about my future made me worried. I was in that mode till the day end. Till now…I feel scared and felt as
“ Will I be a cat!! ??”
I deemed that “I choose a highway to hell”. But I am not Percy-Jackson, to bounce back from hell. Only I can do is try to change the hell into heaven. It’s pretty sure that, I love to be like as me, as now ever and forever because I believe I am 100% perfect for my job. All these doesn’t matter, I did not experienced the style of my company, so it’s not good to feel negative…..I hope for the best only.
Entering to new year,I don’t want to have bad memories, thus I shared with you guys. So i published this blog in the end of this year.
Wishing you all HAPPY NEW YEAR
